Monday, September 29, 2008

The Magical Kingdom

This morning, the video above from youtube caught my attention. It is the video taken in Disney Land California during the firework session. This recalls me of something wonderful happened during my trip to Disney California in 2005.

My memory is still fresh of what happened that night. I keep the happening as a secret and also a sweet memory until now, I think its time to reveal it. That night was christmas eve, the firework was going to start at 8pm. Our trip members all gather in front of the huge christmas tree, the best view site for the firework. Its was cold that night, but I felt no cold and sweat kept falling from my forehead, I was nervous!

Honestly, I liked a girl during the trip to US. That night, I planned to confess to her during the firework, how stupid am I, confess to a girl I know only for 6 days? Ridiculous!! But what to do, I was too innocent that time, only 15 years old, lol...

Ok, I managed to find a chance to stand beside her in front of the magical kingdom (the caslte of disney) and the huge christmas tree was behind us. Believe me, the ambience was absolutely the most romantic one I have seen! But you know what?! My dearest sister came and stood beside me, so I was between her and her and she gave me the DV and asked me to record the firework cause her hand was freezing. OMG!! How can I confess in front of my sister?!! Then finally, I made my mind to give up. But I do appreciate and enjoy the feeling of standing between someone I like and someone I love, watching the most beautiful firework. (ps: she stood so close to me coz is was really cold that night...hehe...)

Unfortunately, I lost contact with her after few months later. SOB!!! But, its a sweet memory that can keep deep inside my heart and let no one knows. (revealed ady lah stupid boy!)

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Single vs Couple


Love represents a range of emotions and experiences related to the senses of
affection and sexual attraction.
Do you take love seriously?


There are tremendous amount of love,
but now let us talk about love between a couple.



Recently, quite a lot of friends asked me: are you both togather again?
Please listen, my answer is no.
But we are best friend now.


Honestly, I am a newbie in this love and know nothing about love.
I had involved in a relationship with a girl for only once. That is my first love and this
relationship ended peacefully on this February, during CNY,
then I am single until now.


Thank to that relationship and also thank to her,
I have learnt a lot and become more mature.
During the relationship,
I always said "I love you forever" and she said that also.
But after broken up, I found that how silly those words came out from my mouth.
There is nothing that can everlasting.
May be it is just to make your partner happy by saying those words,
or may be you really trust in forever and try your best to prove it.
But for me, I think the most important thing is,
both of you loved each other and gave each other a sweet memory,
though it may not be a successful relationship.


Being a bachelor, I am happy and enjoying the single life.
I am quite satisfy with my life now and not planning to involve
myself in any relationship for this moment.
Without a relationship, freedom is always beside you.
You dont have to worry about your partner,
no need to think of what to give him/her during Valentine and birthday.
But sometimes when seeing those couples hugging, kissing or holding each other's hand,
I feel envy. Looking at their smile, you will find out that the smile is so authentic and sweet.
That is what makes me envy.


Some people says, love is dangerous. Normally people's deepest cut is caused by
LOVE. Normally it will be the first love.
When one is in a relationship, he/she may always worry about his/her partner.
Is him/her really love me?
Will him/her stay with me forever?
Does him/her belong to me?
Could him/her has affair with other boy/girl?
Those questions fill our heart with worry. I do have this problem before.
Sometime you would like to love him/her so much but
it will end up with you hurting him/her.
Is single or couple better?
Hope that someone can answer this.







Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Its Freaking Cool~

I found this incredible breakdance on youtube, hope your guys enjoy it. But, no matter wherever you are, whatever your do, please dont try this at home.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Arghhhhh....... #$%$#@&*%^&$

*Sigh* Today, I had done my physics test 1... badly. Argh!! I have tried my best! But i am still not satisfied! I have done the exactly same questions before, but how could I forgot the solution?! I had been so oblivious in such easy questions. This morning I woke up at 6am to study, but it was not worthy! I dont know how to do 3 questions, that means 7.5 marks in final exam gone =.=lll Please... I dont wanna retake this subject again. This subject costs me RM1900!! Also, I want so successfully graduate as an engineer, please dont force me to change my major... please... I think i must put more efford for test 2! Work hard ar!!!

The test reminds me of something: things have changed...
I think this is so called EVOLUTION lol... Things change when we go to different place, meet with different people and do things out of our routine. I have been changing physically and mentally all the time. From super active to inactive, clever to stupid and hardworking to lazy. During primary school time, I was so active in sport, almost participating in every kind of sport except for ball. Jumping, running, it was so happy that time. I could even participating in district level sport, but due to disagreement of my mom, so... My result was so good during primary school time, it was so proud to get number 2 in my class and 4th in the overall. Its really proud when taking the price on the stage. haha....


After 6 years of primary school, finally I stepped into secondary school. Secondary school was really fun and cool! Teenagers secondary are crazy!! They, I mean we did loads of crazy and rediculous things in secondary school. I miss the time we went to camping at the seaside of Batu Ferringi, training camp in school and a lot more camps. Of cause we did tremendous amount of stupid and crazy things during those camps but they were really fun! Also, I have learnt a lot from those camps such as living skills, leadership, first aid, CPR ( i was a Red Cresent member) and how to make fun with people (hehe...). And also made a lot of friends and I lost my first love in high school! I was really actived in co-currillum activities. I almost participated in every popular society or club. I was the"ketua seksyen" of Red Cresent Soceity, committee of English language society, I-EARN and Reporter society, vice president of Astronomy club, committee of swimming club and the president of Chinese Language Society(CLS), the biggest society in our school. Ok, let me tell you all the story of how I get chosen as president.

I only started to participate in this society in form 4, then there was an activity, Chinese Language week. So I was chosen as a committe who incharge in the caligraphy competition. Then one week after the activity, there was an Annual General Meeting (AGM) to choose new committee. So I just went there because I was too free that time. Then the committees postponed the result of new committee. But it was not my business, so I just care about it. After one week, my teacher told me : eh ban pin, your are the president of CLS. WTF!!! How could that be?! I dont believe her, cause she always lied me. lol. So I just pretended nothing happen. One day, suddenly "cikgu, saya nak cari ooi ban pin." It was the previous president, so i just went out to meet him. Then... he told me I am the president of CLS. Wow! its freaking cool! Luckily I was managed to lead the society and earned hundreds buck! but we(committee) wasted the money in one lunch, a high class lunch. haha... Also, I was a swimmer for state level! but I losed in breast stroke 200m. But its ok, I admit I was not as pro as those swimmer.
But... after the competition last year, something bad happened to my health. Sorry this is something confidential, so I am not going to tell what have happened. But because of the problem, I cant swim fast anymore, I can only swim slowly. But it is still ok for me, I being too optimism!!!
5 years secondary life passed, now I am studying in an university college and going to study in USA next year. After coming to INTI, I swim everyday as there is a swimming pool in our campus, this is one of the factor why I choose INTI lol. After the 1st semester passed, something bad happen again. And because of that, doctor advised me to quit swimming. As I said, I am too optimism! So its ok for me to accept that fact. But really miss swimming now... hehe... After coming to college, I become very inactive, I didn't participate in any club nor society until last sem I participated in AUP club then quit this semester. Also, I become more lazy compare to before. May be there is no someone such as my god mom and my ex-gf to force me to study, so my result dropped drastically. Sigh... I tried to force myself for feing hardworking, but failed. Although my parent didn't scold me for my bad result, its still not feeling good showing them such terrible result after they work so hard to pay for my expensive tuition fee. I am such a useless son! Sorry... for letting you down.




Wish that things can change better... and I will try my best to change myself too!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Dream

After watching a japanese drama "Attention Please" which is about the training of airline hostesses and a pilot, this reminds me of my dream. Since I was a small kid, when i saw any aeroplane flying in the sky, I will think that how good if I could drive the jumbo jet. Thats right, my dream is to be a pilot. The 1st time I flied with an aeroplane was in standard 5 when i went to Bangkok with my family. That time, I saw a lot of pilots, wearing black coat, they really looked gorgious and I like the feeling of flying so much. Therefore, I have made up my mind that I want to be a pilot. I wish that when my mom's friend tells her, "hey, my son drive big big car leh, BMW,Benz and whatever." Then my mom can says, " my son drive an aeroplane." Its really proud to hear that!

But, I think that is a dream which I could never achieve. Its alright, I can accept that there is impossible for every dream to be achieved. Very unluckily, I am short-sighted and I cant fulfill the requirement of being a pilot. Also, my mom doesn't encourage me to be a pilot as she said I am too blur to become a pilot. She also scares that she will lose a presious son in this dangerous job, so she objected my dream.

Some of my friend said, why dont you majoring in aeronautical engineering. Its because the one I like is not aeroplane, I like to fly in the broad sky. I do love aeroplane, but I prefer to "drive" the aeroplane myself.

Thats why I prefer choosing Air Asia to fly back to my hometown, rather than taking a bus. Because I love to fly!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

STUPIAK THIEF

(INTI UC NILAI, MONDAY) This morning, a pair of shoes as shown in the photo have been reported stolen in front of a student's room. As we know from the victim, the shoes, cost RM69.90, bought in Penang Queenbay Mall, the brand is Larie. The pathetic student said that he found his shoes have been stolen before he went to his physics class at 9.50am. He said, " although the pair of shoes is not a wellknown branded shoes, but it is so beautiful and i love it so much." How terrible it is for a student who lost his shoes that he need them everyday to walk such a long way to attend his class. Police, CIA and FBI have looked into this case seriously and trying to search for the shoes for him.But, they have tried their best. So, hope that the victim can recover from his lost soon and back to his normal happy life. Lets us all stand in the silent tribute for the shoes.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

One day trip to Midvalley!!

Today i went to midvalley with yong hui, we planned to watch money not enough 2. Wow, it is really a touching comedy, its gorgeous and meaningful. I nearly sacrifice my tears to this movie, but unluckily i am not. The grandmother is really nice, she sacrificed herself to save her granddaughter, that scene so touching T.T But its freaking annoying that two person called me during the movie, kacau kacau only!

After the movie, we started our mission to waste money. After walking for so long, pity to my legs... I finally got my prey!

Figure 1.1

As shown in figure 1.1, that is my prey! This is the 1st time i wear something like this, cause its time to change my style!! I like this shirt so i bought it. Very unluckily, it costed me RM300!! But what to do, i like it so much! And i din buy shirt for such a long time, so i bought it! DEAL! Because i dont have enough cash so i paid with debit card. Walao, the bank stuff lied to me. She said i will have to key in pin number in order to use the card, but just now i found that this card is just work like a credit card! It just need a sign but not pin number! Walao, then its really dangerous to carry this card with me, although i dont have much money left in the account. So i wont carry this card along with me except i really need it.

After that, its time to eat. But, all restaurants' recieption counter got one notice, writting "FULL because of the reservation for buka puasa" Walao, all restaurants, even fast food restaurants were crowded with starving malays, they were staring at the food waiting for the golden time to reach. So what to do? We just kept on walking, searching for a restaurant that sell pork. Cause got pork = no malay! Then suddenly, we went up an escalator and found that we are in The Garden! cool~ Then we found a restaurant that was not full. Although the food is expensive, but it was quite delicious and the service was quite good. So it was worth!!

With this, we finished our one day trip to midvalley with the return of empty wallet.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

What Her Actions Say

When i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]
When i walk away from you mad
[ follow me ]

When i push you or hit's you
[ Grab me and don’t let go ]
When i'm quiet
[ Ask me what’s wrong]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]
When i pulls away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me i'm beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[Just hold me and don’t say a word ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When i'm scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i don’t answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH ]

When she say's that she like's you
[ I really does more than you couldunderstand ]

When I grab at your hands
[ Hold me and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into my back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ don’t look away until i do ]

WHEN I MISS YOU
[ I'M HURTING INSIDE]

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Let The Game Begin!

First week has gone! OMG... I take physics this semester! Can I do it?
Last semester was really terrible, horrible and unmanageble... I ruined up everything! I can only blame myself for not being serious, addict in games and being lackadaisical! Last semester because of test 1, i finally decided to drop physics and concentrate on other subjects, but... my result still so terrible, but luckily i dont have to retake any subject. My CGPA has dropped from 3.43 to 2.94... Its suck!
This semester, I have to PUT MORE EFFORT!!! I aim a B for my physics! Wish i can get it!

I Am An Adult Now !!

Wow, its freaking cool~ I have a new tooth! Last night i felt a little bit tooth pain, so i used my finger and touched the tooth which was pain. Then i found that! It is a new tooth which was still growing, only part of it comes out. Coincidently my mum phoned me so i asked her, she said that the tooth will only grow out when you are an adult!

Yahoo~ Now i have an evidence that i am an adult! wakakaka....